How has a month gone by... I can't make my heart believe you are gone. I wait for your text saying 27 more days Mommy! Instead my clock goes the other way. I miss you so much...
I love you.
Mommy
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De,
How has a month gone by... I can't make my heart believe you are gone. I wait for your text saying 27 more days Mommy! Instead my clock goes the other way. I miss you so much... I love you. Mommy
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De,
I wish on a million stars that I wasn't doing this for you but with you, while I know that this is making you proud it's is breaking my heart in half a billion pieces. We had so much left to do! Bootcamps, runs, lion king sing alongs, deck dancing oh lord what have I done night... I just want you back so badly! I love you Sis! Love Mommy I have for quite a few years walked or ran for Relay for Life... Anita Cecil and I both taught our beautiful Deanna the importance of this event and she worked so hard for years now to raise money and awareness of cancer. Tomorrow I know she will be with me as I run in the cupcake in her memory with the names of so many of our family and friends written across her Deanna Hug! I never imagined this nightmare would be my new life but in her memory I must carry her legacy forward for awareness of not only this horrible disease but also that everyone remember their seat belt EVERY TIME with their Deanna Hug!
Sis,
Amanda, Amy, and I did it. Another 13.1 under the belt. I know you were with me there today, right beside me, i was really calm and felt better than i have in weeks. I know you would have laughed at how I was "encouraging" Amy along. I think she gave me one of your looks a time or 23. I completed the whole thing with your heart right next to mine! Tomorrow I run with your little brother in the Cupcake 5k for Relay for Life in your honor. I will make you proud and stay with him, don't you worry De he will get the "don't you dare stop running!!!" from me. I love and miss you so much my sweet girl! Mommy Dear Life,
You can keep on knocking me down if you would like. I am going to keep getting back up. I am starting to realize that God thinks I am made out of tungsten and that I can just keep going. You may have me down right now Life, and you make keep throwing road blocks at me, and bumps and curves, and life altering cliffs.. but just you wait, this chick does NOT know QUIT. For ever one that turns me away 3 more are lined up to take their place, you just sit back and watch. For ever set back I will make it 6 more steps ahead. You see Life, you screwed up, you thought I was hard to handle before, NOW I am living for my babies AND me. You won't stop me. With my warmest regards Re trying a different approach... on the good days.. GO GO GO GO GO GO.. on the bad days don't feel guilty about it. The only time I feel even remotely "ok" is when I am working to get De's word out... while we are at 1700+ on her page that isn't enough. Starting to make a list of all churches that have youth groups I can think of.. you have one let me know! WISHING YOU ALL A BEAUTIFUL DAY... and if you get just one second.. one tiny second.. and you feel like it.. and the mood strikes.. dance.
To a very best friend. You are an amazing person and momma! I know today is very difficult, please accept the love that is coming your way to give you strength! I love you! XOXOXO
Dreamt of a humming bird last night... It just wouldn't let me be. Flittering all about, but as I reached out to touch it she flew away... I wake thinking, just because I can't touch her doesn't mean she isn't right there.
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