Its amazing how a story can touch a life. I have Deanna's Give.Live.Hug. postcards next to my computer at work for customers to read and pick up. I have had a few ask me what happened and if I knew her. I have had two schools take them back to the office to possibly get Ann Marie Haywood to come speak. But today, I had a customer in here a few minutes ago, ask about it. I told her what happened showed her my bracelet and she listened and cried. Its amazing how Deanna can still touch people's hearts. Thank you Re Haywood from turning a tragedy into something positive. Many mothers wouldn't be able to do that. I know you struggle daily missing her, but I wanted to let you know, that other people are touched by the message as well. you!!!
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Ok i was warned this would happen... people would act different... The did.. they do... Standing in the grocery line with someone I have known all my life turn their head and refuse to look at me again while they were there and quickly walked out... "friends" not returning text, phone calls, or facebook comments... My prayer for you is that THIS never happens to you.. and if it does people have better sense to treat you like you have something wrong with you.. or that it is catching.. yes I am having a moment.. and to those of you that don't know what to do, or say, or how to act... all you have to do is say hi.. if you can't manage even a simple hello to me I don't need you in my life so SEE YA!
The bad part about a "good" weekend is the guilt as I lay here and close my eyes. Saw my family and loves.. And it all still feels so wrong and disrespectful to be trying to make strides at being ok. I miss you my baby girl more than you know. I love you so much.
The feather I found while SUPing today..... Yes it means a lot... Dragonflies, butterflies, and feathers... Google it
The feather I found while SUPing today..... Yes it means a lot... Dragonflies, butterflies, and feathers... Google it
I went to visit with you De.... Your light is shining so bright. I love and miss you so much. Love Mommy.
Missing my girl today so much. How did the days slip by and yet I feel at such a stand still? With my main guy this evening that is some comfort. — at Hound Dog's Fox Den.
Posted to facebook right after the above post. And Joel does it again....Stay the course. Keep believing. You may be tired, discouraged and frustrated, but don't give up on your future. Our God is faithful. Two months and still not even close to reality.... I miss you my sweet girl!
I have to share this. Please read if you want some understanding as to how I feel almost 99% of the time.Some days we just barely inch along in a fog -- unable to concentrate, unable to feel coherent, unable to communicate how we feel. Our emotions are all over the place -- we cry, we lash out at people, we cry some more, and then we fall into a tired heap and weep some more. Child loss is such an empty, lost path to walk! We don't know how to do this thing called "finding our new normal." Other people make it sound so easy --- they've coined the phrase for us. But, the truth is NOTHING feels normal without our child -- ever. Not even the "new normal" feels normal. Everything is painfully different when our child is no longer with us.
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