First night of the restaurant.. even though it was a dry run went great! My friends are amazing and beautiful and they so deserve this!

Had a nasty little head cold that contributed to no sleep that contributed to complete melt down.. there were other factors.. the loss of De.. the thought of finally ordering her stone which seems so final. Like if I just don't do it someone will tell me it didn't really happen. The completion of this project which shows my downward spiral into deep depression and the onslaught of patterns from someone I thought was very dear to me.

Thankfully God heard my cries and sent in Ilona to save the day! (I hear the cartoon character in my head "Here I come to save the day!!!" and she sat with me and just talked. Did say well you should do this you should do that.. just talked.

Received more amazing confirmations from God that he was here and close by and hearing my cries for help and understanding through Aunt Ann's beautiful emails.

Also recieved a very unexpected email last night .. that I think I will just leave and pretend it didn't come. It was after all about 2 months late.

And TODAY!!!! TODAY the restaurant opens!!!!
I would like to wish my BESTEST Friend the BESTEST Wishes today! Her dreams are coming true... may the kitchen run smooth, the wine pour easily, and the customers be delighted (as if they wouldn't be). I LOVE YOU Amanda L. Wolf! YOU ARE A ROCK STAR. The The Saltbox Cafe opens today at 5! (oh yea I like that Sprinkle dude too a little bit lol)

Seriously I am amazingly proud of you both, you are both so deserving of this after all you have done for me. Love you guys, Re

If you put yourself all up in MY world.. be prepared to be part of my story. And enjoy the ride... I come armed with, God, a shovel, and my writing...

A zebras stripes don't change because they read words in a book.
Compassion and Love isn't a taught gift.. it is learned through practice..

Wonder why it is when you are trying so hard that is when the little things happen that want to drag you back down. I don't get it.

It's like climbing up a ladder and you step on the first rung and it breaks and you are back at the bottom, you take the time to saw off the legs of the ladder to fix it and you step on the next rung and SNAP back on the ground having to saw again. Before long the ladder will be gone and all that will be left with is a pile of broken sticks.

Wonderful article on Why Bad things Happen to Good People

It is very wise to let sleeping dogs lie... I am telling you right now I have been around enough to know that if you poke enough they will rip your throat out . Go ahead poke again.

While asking for joys in church this morning I very boldly stated that I was joyed that I spent the weekend with my dear friend and sis from back home .... and we didn't go to jail. I am sure my daddy and Waverly Hudgins are also joyous in regards to this.

There are times I think the greatest luxury I could ask for is to not be held responsible for others assumptions ~ Kelly Crowe

Happy birthday in heaven my friend. Is this year different? Do you age? Have you met her yet? In my heart you are 19 year after year. In my heart you met her at the gates. In my heart you taught her to sing Delta Dawn at the top of her lungs and she taught you the Lion King song. In my heart you are both telling stories of the silly funny things you both did with me. In my heart you didn't have a chance to meet on earth but in heaven are best buds. So Mel show her how to celebrate it up like we used to do... Happy Birthday my dear dear friend. Love you always.