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5/14/2013 PM

5/14/2013

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Hey baby,

I sit here this afternoon in tears and can't seem to make them stop again. I just want this all to be some cruel horrible joke. Where you pop out and say.. GOTCHA.. for all the bad things I ever did. I don't understand how exactly I am supposed to go on.. to even try seems too be too much.

You know everyone says I need to get back to myself.. well who the hell am I now? I don't even know. Nothing seems important or worth doing. I want you to come back so bad. I want you to have the future you were supposed to.. not this. This is not fair! This is NOT how it is supposed to be.


Everything hurts... I don't understand why they couldn't fix you that day.. why you didn't have your seat belt on.. I don't understand any of it. All I know is that you aren't coming back and sometimes I don't even know that. It is quite honestly the worst story movie book of all time. One that you keep waiting for the ending to change so you can put it down and be ok about it. But it isn't.. it just is going to keep going.

I love you.. so much.

Love

Mommy


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9/27/2013 12:55:47 am

Just taking a quick coffee break and wanted to post a hello

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