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Understanding Your Grief

Grief is not an enemy or a sign of weakness. It is a sign of being human. Grief is the cost of loving someone.

Since grief comes to everyone, why do some people seem to work through it better than others?

“Some people think that going through the losses or crises of life are the exceptional times,” says Dr. H. Norman Wright.

“I see it differently. I see the times of calm as the exceptions. Life really is going through one loss after another, one crisis after another.

"Instead of avoiding talking about these times, let’s do our homework. When you know what to expect, you’re not thrown by them as much, and you’re going to be better able to recover.”

“But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” (Isaiah 40:31).

Lord God, teach me to embrace my grief and not fight it, so that I may experience the true healing that comes from You. Amen.

So many times I get asked "what can I do for you?" Still. You can hug me. No words needed. Then go hug your mom, your dad, your brother, your sister, your babies. Don't let a day go by without hugs! They are more emotion filled than even a kiss.

Seven months have slipped by without you near.. without a text, without a call, without an I love you Mommy. Seven months of mind numbing, heart breaking madness. Seven months of darkness where your light shined. I thought I knew heart break and pain.. I was wrong.

But, if I was given the option to not feel this, to not hurt, to be out of the darkness, but in return had to give up all memory of you.. I would choose the pain. Your life was beautiful, you touched more than I ever imagined. So many people miss and love you, my sweet beautiful angel.

So you play it sweet in heaven with your brother baby, and Mommy will meet you at those glorious gates before you can blink your eyes!

I love you Deanna Christy Haywood, My love flies to you on the wings of angels.

keep fighting.... we are here....

You're not really free until you're free from trying to please everybody.

I will always love you Deanna Christy Haywood until my last breath when I get the glorious pleasure of being with you in paradise. My love flies to you on the wings of angels my sweet girl.

HELLO MY NAME IS RE AND I AM LOVED! Filled with lots of love from Kitty Hawk United Methodist Church tonight, dinner with the band and the Dare Challenge Men in Black, then another Word I needed to hear. I am NOT a failure I am NOT strange I am NOT a horrible mother I am RE and I am loved. I had the wonderful pleasure tonight of being surrounded by love not only from the wonderful barefoot ladies of the retreat sitting through out the congregation, but literally by Ashten and Amanda on each side of me and sweet Callie and Brody in my lap, you can not get more surrounded by love than that! And how blessed am I to know this sweet child who when SHE felt the urge to raise her little hand and shout Halleluiah! in the middle of the sermon she didn't not even hesitate! I can't even begin to count all the hugs before and after.. but also today I was planning a sleep over with two sweet little girls and said .. I need to figure out what to do with Drake, as I am leaving church my phone rings and it is Prayer Worship leader Matt's Dad as I call him, calling to ask if Drake can go to a hockey game Saturday with them! God is SO GOOD! Not only will I enjoy an evening of girl time but my boy will be enjoying his night! Only thing missing was a big hug from Betsy! — with Brant Honeycutt and Theresa Dryden Honeycutt.

What's on my mind.. forgiveness and allowing the bitterness to go away. Life is way too short to hold grudges, I think back to what if my last conversation with either of my babies had been hateful and mean, or a mean act towards them, how could I possibly forgive myself. Let go of the hurt in your life, forgive, and LET GO. I have no hate towards anyone in my life, have I been hurt yes, are they forgiven yes, I will hold no regret or harbor any grudge towards them, I am peacefully walking away from situations that no longer allow growth in my life and running into the arms of true friends and family.

Day 18 ~ I have been trying to find the right words for this one....... Today I am thankful for knowing a woman to has and still is overcoming many obstacles in life. Even though she feels she isnt coping well, we all see the strength and courage to keep going. Every day she amazes me and keeps going putting one unmatched sock foot in front of the other. She is an inspiration to many as she is working to make a difference in the world. Thank you Re for being a blessing and an inspiration to many. You!!!!!

Why is it that I can't sleep worth a hoot over night.. but when the sun starts coming up I could sleep for hours.. — feeling tired.