I say goodnight

I say goodnight. I wish for sweet dreams of you. Just a simple hello or an I Love you. I hear the voice of all I should have said and should have done. The wall between here and there. The screaming of the what ifs is so loud you can't get through. I lay awake wishing you were here to say go to sleep mommy I am home. Go to sleep mommy you will see me. Go to sleep mommy I am holding your hand now like you held mine. Go to sleep mommy I am beside you as you stayed by me. I say good night. I wish for sweet dreams of you.