I'm just not ready

My expectations of understanding from people may be set to high... But if you expect more from me than breathing and just the simple act of trying to move forward through day to day tasks I think you are expecting too much from me. No I don't go out, no I don't go to parties, no I don't go to others homes, I spend my time with four people for the majority of my time. I need to be where I feel safe... Those are very few places. On the beach... It's home... If you want to see me and spend time with me I am more than grateful to open my home and have you there... I am just not ready for much else. There have been strides forward and set backs but I am still standing. I love you all but I needed to say this so you can understand a tiny bit of why no one sees me out and about much. It isn't because I don't love you. It's just that I am not ready.