The feeling inside..

I have to share this. Please read if you want some understanding as to how I feel almost 99% of the time.Some days we just barely inch along in a fog -- unable to concentrate, unable to feel coherent, unable to communicate how we feel. Our emotions are all over the place -- we cry, we lash out at people, we cry some more, and then we fall into a tired heap and weep some more. Child loss is such an empty, lost path to walk! We don't know how to do this thing called "finding our new normal." Other people make it sound so easy --- they've coined the phrase for us. But, the truth is NOTHING feels normal without our child -- ever. Not even the "new normal" feels normal. Everything is painfully different when our child is no longer with us.