The weight of trauma

Sometimes the weight of trauma out weighs the will or want of my spirit. It hurts and it's a struggle to get out of bed and I want to run a half marathon in a month. Traumatic Depression is all consuming that is for sure. Those that suffer from mental disorders I am here for you, I always lived a life of "your just sad" "shake out of it" "just take your meds". It has taken the accident for me to see life is not as black and white as my mother raised me to believe. I am sad, depressed, forgetful, find myself seeing things that aren't there, having long conversations with no one, I know these things about myself... I can't imagine the feelings of those that don't realize... May God Bless you all.