Hi there. I am Re. I live in chaos and I actually love it. Chaos is a large part of me and my make up and I embrace that. I enjoy jumping from job to job daily, a quick dine and dash with friends on a moments notice, an impromptu art class or company showing up on my door unannounced, hour long training sessions that will drop you to your knees, followed by a surprise lunch, it is what I do. It is my own beautiful chaos theory, in that I operate best in busyness and full calendars and having empty spots filled quickly with friends and activities. I flounder in unnecessary and unwelcomed quiet. That is not to say that I do not like being alone.. I DO! I absolutely LOVE my down time and I will quickly say, it has been a long weekend I am going to stay in tonight and just reset.
I know people who are the complete opposites of me and that is ok. I know others who are some form of a mixture of it all and that is ok too. I know lots of people and we are all very different, and I love each of you and it is ok. The point is what is ok for you, I don't fit into any more than you would fit well into my chaos. I know very well that it would be difficult for others to keep up the pace I set myself in.
I have had numerous people recently tell me they couldn't live the way I do. Ok.. what is my response supposed to be to that? I typically give a little laugh and say there is nothing to it. The truth is there is a LOT to it. There is a lot to my life and there is a lot to yours as well. I commend you for living your life the way you need to be you and loving yourself enough to realize what you need for you. I have been doing self discovery work for a little while now and one thing that I am finding is that I still at this age allow what people's opinion to directly affect my feelings of myself. They say.. "Your life is crazy! I could not do that" I hear.. "You are crazy, I am normal." I am trying at this point to reset my brain into hearing the words people are saying but it is difficult, especially when the words are really unneeded in the first place.
I would hope that I would never reply to someones weekend relaxing as "Wow your life is so boring" ok I did that once when I was 25 to my dad and to this day he still brings it up. My point on all of this.. commenting on someones life style is risky. Unless you are very openly complimenting the other party on something in their lifestyle you find commendable and interesting, it just comes across ugly. The chaos, it keeps me sane, believe me I have recently crawled out of the pit that not having the busyness led to and ultimately it nearly killed me. So maybe instead of finding my way of life so crazy, perhaps see it for the beauty that it is, in that I am still here and living my beautifully chaotic life!
Love and Peace,
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