Today marks 9 months since my sweet girl earned her wings. 9 months, the same amount of time as her mommy I anxiously waited to hear her first cry, to hold her in my arms, to meet her, I felt her move, I heard her heart beat, I saw her as a little bean no bigger than a butterbean.... that nine months there was a gift at the end.
This nine month I have also anxiously waited the day I could meet her and hold her again... but it has been in silence. There have been no heart beats, no flutters of kicks, only silence, and at the end of this 9 months there has been no gift. There will be one glorious day just not today.
As her mommy this day is hurting my heart much more. I would like to spend the day reflecting on things we would be doing and are going to do when that wonderful day comes!
I ask all of you to please, wear your seat belt and get your Deanna hug, don't allow anyone to steal your joy, be the light in someone's life today, give someone you love, live for God and yourself as youself, be you.... and above all hug someone.