I think it is to be a scorcher this week. So stay hydrated (Re that's for you too.. drink your dang water! You know you are an idiot that runs in the hottest part of the day.. DRINK YOUR WATER!!) and spend time in the shade. Be still.
I posted on Saturday morning about my frantic house cleaning event. All because I invited my other brother to dinner. He has been here in the last 6 months,,, on some of the worst days, he has seen the mess but Saturday you would think that I invited the Queen of Sheba and her entourage, instead of people that love me. The depression goggles fell off as I got up Saturday morning and I felt that old friend coming for a visit. Mr Panic! I hit the floor running, I was doing 6 things at one time, literally, I was stopping and thinking "Wait you were washing dishes, why are you now folding clothes, go finish the dishes, but before I made it back to the kitchen I was in the bathroom spraying things, then picking up shoes, only to find a sock and remember that I was folding clothes, to start folding clothes and finding a dish towel and remember I was SUPPOSED to be washing dishes. I have issues. AND I was getting NOTHING finished. Nothing.
Thankfully Ed needed food and I needed to go to the grocery store so off to a great breakfast at Howard Dooley's we went. I do need to apologize to Tracy and Robby.. I was not my normal "hey how is everything? Whats going on?" self I was totally in my head calculating all of the things that had to get done before 7 pm and if I had time to do it. Generating a list that I desperately needed to write as soon as I got home. I most definitely was not trying to be rude, but I feel like I was. I love you guys.. just know that :)
As soon as I got home I whipped up the very long list of things that needed to be done.
- Sweep (KD is in a MAJOR shedding event right now.. there was at least 3 more dogs hiding in my house just in lost fur alone, I do not know how she is not bald, I feel like I have brushed out most of her undercoat and yet.. it is STILL EVERYWHERE)
- Dust (see above)
- Mop (I say mop but it started with hand washing the kitchen and bathroom floors, then mopped)
- Kitchen (which means what it says.. everything in the kitchen needed a good scrub)
- Bathroom (again the same thing,,, everything in the bathroom)
- pick up all of the things that are just not where they belong
- Cut the grass
- Sweep the Porch
- Blow off the deck
- Set up the tables outside
- COOK! (Wings and "Tater Salad" and the Salad dressing)
I think there was more on this list but it was an insane amount of things to get done. As I wrote it my chest just kept getting tighter and tighter and Ed kept saying "Wow you got up grumpy" and all I could do was scream GET OUT! It was NOT a pretty morning at all.
I started with the things that had to be done in the kitchen, the wings needed dry rubbing, the dressing needed to be made, the cauliflower steamed (Tee I LOVE my green thing by the way I think I forgot to tell you that) check check check... I was mentally in my head thinking this needed to be done before that, instead of just running from task to task to task leaving all unfinished. I was getting somewhere!
I am so thankful that somewhere in the middle of all of that Ed I think realizes that I may have overloaded my plate and he cut the grass and set up the tables and umbrellas on the porch. (PS he wasn't just sitting around .. well maybe he was but it wasn't in my line of sight LOL he had his things he was doing too)
Sometime around 530 Pm I sat down on the deck... looked around... checked the list.. and it was done. Every thing on the list was done. Not one thing remained. I had a few minutes to Be Still and Know.
Time to calm my racing mind and heart, to be in the fact that we pulled it off, we did it all, and know what we accomplished before our guest arrived. I am so grateful for those few minutes because they allowed me to then enjoy my company. Had I not I think i would have still been frantic when they arrived. The yard looked amazing (thanks babe) the house was spotless, the food was amazing, and the company was incredible! The evening was a SUCCESS!
"That's nice Re. Why are you rambling on about mundane household chores?"
I'm not.. I am talking about being still.
It was not all of those chores that were completed during the day that made the night wonderful. It was those few moments that Ed and I had together on the deck in between the chores and our arriving family that made it wonderful. Those few moments of Being Still and Knowing we had done all we could to make the night successful. I think so much of our life is caught up in the rat race that we just don't take the time to Be Still and Know (you can fill in the rest of that however you would like). Right now the scale is being still, I am still hovering right between two goals, the last and the next, and it just won't tip over to the side I am longing for.
This morning when yet again it had not hit that goal I thought to myself, Be still and look at what you have accomplished already! Be still and know you are still putting in the work! Be still and know it will happen! Be still and let your body do what it needs to get to the next goal! Sometimes we want things to be just so that we keep pushing and pushing and pushing when the key to the success we long for is just... being still. So for today I am going to just appreciate how far I have come and how much farther I know I will go!
Signing off today with this, is there an area in your life that you are just you just can't seem to get to goal? Can you Be Still in it for a day, a week, even a month and allow it the room it needs to breathe?
Peace Love and Light