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Don't let this be forever

6/27/2016

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I know some of you have read the hurt and sadness in my posts recently.. the complete darkness of depression sneaking back in. I have never been one to hide my feelings or thoughts. I realize that even reading my posts are hard for some of you. I do apologize, but if one person doesn't feel as completely alone and devastated as I do right now then it's worth it.
I have made so many mistakes that they are uncountable, but I think the biggest ones I have made involved putting others in front of me. Saying yes to ease their burdens to the point my burdens are so great I don't think I will ever feel peace again until death welcomes me home.
My spread of myself and trying to do for all has left me so drained and empty that I don't have the fight left to even begin to fix me. Even if I had the strength I allowed people to use me up to the point I no longer have the means.
My sadness, stress, and pain have manifested to a point that loved ones are steering clear so that I don't bring them down.
I never did anything for anyone expecting a gain or a pay back, but I didn't focus on my inner circle enough to see that I was giving away myself until there was nothing of me left.
My point is.. I didn't follow the airplane crash instructions. I didn't put my own oxygen mask on first, now there is no air left for me to breathe to help those that need it or even myself because those that got to me first just sucked it all away.
Check your circle.. check your air bags.. check your oxygen levels.
Don't end up so spent the only thing left you have to give are tears and sadness to your loved ones.
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