Do not get me wrong.. ok is.. well ok. It is better than I have been in a long time but I want to be GREAT! I am really not grumpy, I am just determined, and maybe just a little frustrated. I want to be stronger, faster, and well smaller. I think that will help with the achy a lot.
It is still difficult for me to watch the faster groups move on along without me. It takes me a bit to warm up, but once I get the joints moving I am doing better and can keep up more. It's just that first half a mile or so.. good grief. I have noticed I do better with someone running along side of me. I work harder to keep the pace but let's face it when you are a "in between" no one has the same pace so it is very hard to have a partner to help push you along. Its really kind of odd to be honest. I have never been much on partner running, mainly because I was always the slow caboose but I find myself longing for that person that will help push me along.
The other thing that I have been dodging and hiding and skirting around, it's fall. Its that time of year that everything in my heart implodes and I miss my babies more than ever. Its that time of year when families come together and enjoy each other and so much of mine is heaven that it truly just hurts to breath at times.
But I will make it through, I always do.
Besides I have goals!
March 1/2 Marathon with Drake
April 1/2 Marathon with the crew in Rehobeth
May 2 Spartans
I have to be ok.
So there you have it... nothing is wrong. I am just ok.
Love and Peace