Short week for me! Well technically I will have two short weeks. Taking off Friday for the long weekend and then off on Monday for the holiday.
You just can’t go wrong with that.
What a busy weekend we had around here at Eastern State! Friday Bekah and I went and picked my Penny the Peloton, so I was a little later in getting my Friday evening things done. Ed was also a little late coming in as he was cutting hay, so no projects were started.
Saturday morning I hopped up and took Penny for a beginner spin for 20 minutes (thank goodness I did that.. explain in a few) and then ran 2 miles, banged out my plank and we were ready to start the day. I made my love a cherry pie (which by the way is a production… I didn’t allow myself nearly enough time for that!) Then I fiddled around watering plants, moving a few, I feel like I didn’t get much done in the way of projects on Saturday. We headed out to celebrate our dear friends birthday and by the time I got home I just plopped down in the chair and chilled. Yesterday .. boy did we get stuff kicked up and done yesterday! Started with a quick trip for breakfast and searching for a few parts for the boat, back home and time to paint. (I hate painting I am now certain) Together got the boat painted and ready for the water, while the job was no easy task I think it went much quicker and while not a FUN job, we made it much more enjoyable just by sharing in the misery. I think my favorite job of the weekend was clearing out the “boat port” side of the garage and realizing that my jeep fits perfectly under there! How fun to have the tops out and not worry about in and out EVERY TIME! That is yet another one of those things that I was missing so badly about being home, dry parking!
This morning I hopped up at 5 am to take Penny on my second spin, and as I mentioned early I am soooooo grateful I did 20 minutes the other day and did another 20 minutes today. I am totally sticking with 20 minute classes this week and adding on in the weeks to come, just like I have been doing with my running. MY WORD MY LEGS!! I would easily have told you that my legs have always been strong, maybe not fast runner strong, but strong nonetheless, today they feel like… like… mince meat. I don’t mean in a bad “I am in pain” kind of way I mean in a “Wow, that is a much different use of my legs!” kind of way. My goal this week is an every other day ride. So Monday, Wednesday, Friday, I have a 5k on Monday so I want two full days of no rides before hand. I can not wait to see where the rides take me!
So why all of this mumbo jumbo about my weekend? I really doubt you care much about pie making or copper paint painting, but here I am telling you about it because I really wanted to show you in a bigger picture scheme that I really am doing ok. That even in the normal things I am finding happiness and again dare I say it .. joy. The feeling is still very foreign to me and I don’t think I realized how much until Saturday night. Since I started my journey over, I have been even more cautious and careful about who I spend my time with, no large gatherings really and certainly no large gathering in public places where I could not make an exit. Weird right? Here I was Saturday evening surrounded by friends in a public place and laughing and joking and having a great time. It was a wonderful time, with people I care about tremendously, until I got home and my mind went to, “Did I do anything stupid? Did I say something weird? Maybe I should have done this different?” you know the drill I second guessed it all! Right down to why did you feel so … “high”. I was stumped on that one. Yea I had a few beers but nothing that would even begin to explain the feeling. I even texted our friend that night and apologized if I did anything strange. I pondered this until last night. As I was winding down from the weekend, after all the projects were done, the tools put away, everyone was fed and I was showered, I took some time to pick apart what that was, because I was not sure I wanted to feel that way again, and I needed to figure out what caused it. In drilling through the evening, and dinner, and the time we were at the restaurant I thought about how I felt, the only terms that came to mind were happiness and joy. There was literally no sadness, fear, nervousness, nothing in a negative light at all. Just pure happiness and joy.. and what did it do??? SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME THAT’S WHAT!!! I just KNEW something was wrong with me!!!
The weekend was so utterly happy and normal that it felt wrong. So if you see me out and about with a very confused look in my eyes, but a smile on my face.. just let me know.. “It’s ok, it’s supposed to feel this way”
Signing off with this today, have you ever been in pain so long that it just started to feel normal? That when you didn’t feel the pain anymore that was an indication that something was off?
Peace Love and Light