KIDDING KIDDING!!! NO ONE WANTS TO SEE THAT!
Even I don't want to see that lol.
GOOD MORNING! Sorry for the lateness, but here I am. Days just aren't as "routine" as they were a few months ago.. BUT I HAVE NEWS!!!! We have a good and solid plan for Drake to return home in just a few short days! That means my own routine will be back to errrhmm "normal"? And I can focus on me a bit more.
I know I will be happy to get my house here back in order and happier still to spend some time in my house there! I have missed my people and beds so! Having said all of that, it will be yet another adjustment. As much as I need my Re time.. having Drake here with me has been a treat as well. I am sure I will go through another period of missing my boy, he is a cool cat to be around. Both of my boys are... man I am one lucky mama!
I have spent just a few short minutes every day this week on myself, I have made those 15 20 minute burst a priority in my day and I am already feeling better for it. (even if I still wake up stiff and sore lol) My concern and worry now is the half at the end of October. I don't know if I will be ready! It is just so damn hot that I can't even stand to walk outside and even inside riding makes me nauseated. I should not have stopped .. I would still be able to perform in this heat but alas... once again I screwed up. It DOES look like next week we will have cooler nights so maybe so early morning running will be a hit! (Re set your damn alarm)
Complete 180 on topics here..
Even I don't want to see that lol.
GOOD MORNING! Sorry for the lateness, but here I am. Days just aren't as "routine" as they were a few months ago.. BUT I HAVE NEWS!!!! We have a good and solid plan for Drake to return home in just a few short days! That means my own routine will be back to errrhmm "normal"? And I can focus on me a bit more.
I know I will be happy to get my house here back in order and happier still to spend some time in my house there! I have missed my people and beds so! Having said all of that, it will be yet another adjustment. As much as I need my Re time.. having Drake here with me has been a treat as well. I am sure I will go through another period of missing my boy, he is a cool cat to be around. Both of my boys are... man I am one lucky mama!
I have spent just a few short minutes every day this week on myself, I have made those 15 20 minute burst a priority in my day and I am already feeling better for it. (even if I still wake up stiff and sore lol) My concern and worry now is the half at the end of October. I don't know if I will be ready! It is just so damn hot that I can't even stand to walk outside and even inside riding makes me nauseated. I should not have stopped .. I would still be able to perform in this heat but alas... once again I screwed up. It DOES look like next week we will have cooler nights so maybe so early morning running will be a hit! (Re set your damn alarm)
Complete 180 on topics here..
Last night I received the photo above from a dear dear friend. It is 1000% ACCURATE. My grief is never ending, as most people's. I have said it over and over and over.. IT IS OK TO GRIEVE! It is so ok to be not ok! It is ok to be not ok over your dog that passed away when you were 7 36 years later. NO ONE SHOULD EVER EVER judge your grief or feelings. If they do.. send them my way I would like to have a conversation with them. So your parent had been fighting an illness for years, that does NOT make their death any less of a loss on someone than my child dying instantly. You deserve your time to grieve and move forward as you need. Even if that means moving 2 steps forward and 3 back sometimes. I am so very very grateful that I have friends in my life that understand my crazy as it is, and don't judge me when I am not ok.
So if you happen to be going through something today, go through it, work through it, in your own way. It is a ok to not be ok. Know that you should not be judged for how you feel, and as always... I am here for you, even if I am a bit nuts in my own grief.
Peace Love and Light
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So if you happen to be going through something today, go through it, work through it, in your own way. It is a ok to not be ok. Know that you should not be judged for how you feel, and as always... I am here for you, even if I am a bit nuts in my own grief.
Peace Love and Light
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