The funny thing was my sweet friend Amy said that everyone is all pre race nervous smiling except me. I have a huge real big smile going on... there is good reason. I thought maybe that might be my last smile that was ever captured. I thought for sure I was headed toward my final mile, the end, lights out. Yes the thought truly did cross my mind... what if I die?? I didn't die. I am glad I didn't die.. but dying would have been ok. Dying was not my worst case scenario... being stuck in a porta potty was my worse case scenario. This may have had something to do with the fact that I did not use one the entire day. (I think I discussed the death and porta potty already so I will move on)
The magnet just said the right things. Things I need to read more than once, so I bought it to hang where I would see it daily.
The final bracelet, everyone knows I have a thing for feathers and angel wings now. It's for Deanna. It is to remind me to live. To remind me life is short. It is to remind me to do it all before it is too late. It is to remind me she is forever with me in my heart. It is to remind me that she is not dead but yet still alive in the hearts of many. It is to remind me that she hasn't left me. It is to remind me that falling it not the worst case scenario, not taking the chance to fly is. "Oh, but my darling, what if you fly"
Healthy striving is self-focused: "How can I improve." Perfectionism is other-focused: "What will they think."
— Brené Brown
I am already thinking of how I can improve and what the next thing is. So it was just the perfect thing to see this morning as I start my planning and training.
Have a beautiful day people... and remember.. we all have angels.