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New year.. New... NOPE STILL OLD ME!

1/2/2019

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While scrolling through Facebook memories I saw a post I made in 2010. "New Year New Me!" I cringed in shame at my posting of something so mundane and ridiculous. You do not in any way become a "new you" because the clock flipped from 11:59 pm to 12:00 am. It just doesn't happen. You can also be very cute and list out all of your pretty new year resolutions in gold cursive with glitter but because you are the old you.. chances are they won't stick. Studies show that only 8% of us Americans actual can maintain those unobtainable goals we put before ourselves like the prize turkey on Thanksgiving. It looks and smells delicious and we are ready to just sink our teeth and taste buds into this new thing as we are double fisting our forks!  Unfortunately most of us walk away fairly quickly having found our dreams tasted more like Aunt Bethany's jello mold and usually we are a little worse for the wear. Why? Because on to our busy and already stressful lives we have added yet another stresser... the resolution and when we find it to be unsustainable we feel like a failure, no more new you and all of a sudden you really dislike the old you when the old you was perfectly fine!  Ok maybe you had a few dents but you still ran and got you from point a to b!

Look I am all for goals. I have a goal. I think it is obtainable, I didn't shout it from the rooftops, or paint it in glitter, it also won't make me a new me, but I have something in 2019 that I am striving for.  I hope you have one too. But.. if you are riding that WOOHOO coaster thinking that "2019 is GOING TO BE YOUR YEAR!!" Chances are.. I am sorry to say.. that it wont be. Don't put too much on your plate, don't come out on January 1st and say I am going to run 10 miles every day. You won't. Don't facebook post saying I am going to never miss a work out in 2019. You will. Don't be ridiculously burdensome to yourself.  Why not learn how to love the old you? Old you can walk a mile? Work on improving that by jogging, or lengthening the mileage.  You can run a half marathon on a whim? Improve that by helping a friend train to run one too. You made it through 2018 fairly unscathed by depression, reflect and learn what triggers were eliminated and try to eliminate another in 2019.

I am sure there are some of you that are thinking.. well isn't she just a stick in the mud. Yes, yes I am, but guess what. I am me.

I am a daughter, who wasn't so great.
I am a sister, who wasn't so great.
I am a mother, who wasn't so great.
I am a friend, who wasn't so great.

The list could go on and go and my point is nothing that I could place in front of me as a goal for 2019 would change my past, therefore there is no "New Me" .. old me is right there because life created me and we just can't turn back time.

I could say I will drop 100 lbs this year, I could say I will let go of all the things that pain me most, I could say I will run another marathon, I could say I will pay off all my debt... guess what still me even if I did these things!  I still buried children, I still suck as a mother, I  am not the best friend in the world.. you get my point here right? None of those things, no matter how awesome, are going to change the inner core of my being and chances are I would be sitting here 365 days from now thinking to myself.. well maybe this year.

So maybe this year there won't be a new me, but that doesn't stop me from striving to be a better me. I hope to use this year to lose some pounds, run a little more, let go of some pain, and save a little money but none of those things are as important as striving to be a better Daughter, Mother, Sister, and Friend.

May 2019 find you in health and peace.

Peace and Love,
Re



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12/26/2022 01:26:19 am

Thankks for writing this

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