As I sit here this morning and look out into the darkness of the morning I see my moon globe out by the tree. The little light is just barely visible in a small dot. The globe itself is not glowing at all. It's out of energy and juice from a long night of color changing beauty and brightness. It is time for it to recharge, today's sun will come along and provide it what it needs while it rests in the warmth of the day, then tonight it will be back glowing brightly as ever. Unless. Unless today is cloud a covered dreary day, then my little moon globe will not get the care it needs to be bright and beautiful tonight, it will struggle to shine.
Aren't we all a little like the moon globe? Burning so brightly and beautifully until we need recharge? Unfortunately for many of us we find it very hard to allow ourselves the time to nurture ourselves back to full charge and we carry on our days struggling to shine only to rinse repeat day after day after day until our little glow is so small we barely have the energy to be. We need to be more like my little globe, we need to be vigilant in the times of recharge, we need to soak up the sun and all of the warmth so that we can shine brightly, because without a doubt a cloudy day will come along, as they do and we don't want one day of gray to turn our beauty off forever.
I want you to take a look at my photos really quick, do you see the one that looks like it was taken in a greenhouse, or a plant store display? That is my kitchen table this morning. (yes I realize I very well may have a plant problem... worry about youself Lucille) Yesterday a few people messaged me about covering my plants or bringing them in as we were expecting a cold snap and frost was possible. My first responses were, there is no way I can bring them in there are tooooo many (ps there are more than the picture.. again.. worry about you boo lol), so then it was cover them, and I was afraid they would break because they are so tiny right now, excuse excuse excuse, but in my brain I was thinking thinking thinking, how can I help my baby beauties?? What can I do to help keep them warm tonight so they may thrive and produce? Finally it came to me! Move the littles inside and for all of the larger pots outside flip the empty containers I have over on top of them! This would keep them protected and snuggly and warm so that today they can bask in the sun perfectly safe! I am pretty sure that everything is a ok and they didn't get any frost, but I was determined to make sure they were going to be ok.
Here I am fretting over a plant that I may have paid 3 bucks for!! What can I do to make this little being survive a harshness of the world? And to say I was pleased when I came up with a solution is an understatement! I felt I had accomplished something! Now why in heavens name can I not do that with MYSELF?? Why do we find it so darn hard to give ourselves the basics of recharging and self nurturing? I promise you, it is on you, you have to pull this off for yourself. Don't get me twisted here please, yes others can and WILL come along and provide you a little of their glow to keep you going, if they didn't I would not have survived the last eight years, but that is their glow, not yours, it is not going to bring you to the full beauty that is to be you. We ... and I use the word we when I am completely meaning I but I just know I am not alone in this... have so much greatness in us, but through the rat race we have normalized the struggle to shine in some capacity, even if very dimly, 24 hours a day 7 days a week. It's time to break that cycle.
I have in the last few weeks started to nurture myself in a way that I have not allowed or made excuses for over the last decade. I have eaten right, I have cut so far back on the alcohol consumption that it is more strange for me to drink a beer at the end of the day than to not, I have been working out, I have been taking my meds, I have made goals, I have surrounded myself with strong supportive people, I have reached out for help, I have continued to research and learn about where I am in life.... I have taken great strides in helping myself regain my glow.... except... I refuse to relax or rest. It is go go go go go all of the time. (Ed swears I am trying to kill him... he goes back to Richmond to work so he can REST) I am so afraid to slow down, that if I am not doing something to keep the glow shining that is just going to go out. I realize as I am writing this that I need to pay closure attention to the lesson from my moon globe today, as I am now looking out I see the globe is off completely, not because it is dead, but because in it's time of recharge it has allowed it's glow to REST!
Signing off with this, may we all learn a little lesson from my moon globe and plants.... that we need to allow nurturing and REST to reach our full bloom and glow!
Peace Love and Light