I do wish there was more understanding into what causes the really bad days so I could head them off before they grab hold and drag me into the darkness, but there is really no forewarning. It can be as quick as a switch, BLAM! tears, and they can last for 5 minutes or for days. Again there is no rhyme or reason to it. I can go to the cemetery and water her tree and be absolutely ok, when one would think that would be a massive trigger, yet come home and hear a happy Christmas song and lose my mind. It is such an unfair journey has it is, it seems that something could make it easier.
As for today, I am just going to take it minute by minute and try to make it awesome, if it turns to tears I will deal with that also, because at some point the scribble will scrabble back the other way.