I feel like I am walking into an office that i have been away from for weeks and clicking the light on with that resounding snap and standing in the familiar that I have been missing. I feel a little like I abandoned you but I also know I abandoned myself and my own routines for a bit.. but I am only one person and having to make choices of what fits in where is hard sometimes.
I do have some updates in case you missed it. Drake had his surgery on Thursday and so far is handling it well. He has pain but did manage to get up yesterday for awhile. He has stood every day but just that hop to move on crutches is painful. He isn't allowed to use his scooter until he gets a different cast in place. In general his attitude is far better than mine. I am proud of him. So very very proud of him. He has a long road ahead of his so whatever you do.. pray.. bless.. vibe... juju.. do it please.
Speaking of Juju... which ever one of you put that hex on me.. you should be fully satisfied. Two people have asked me if I wished ill will on someone and I DID NOT.. I DO NOT.. THAT IS NOT MY THING, but daggone if some lingering thing isn't around. Or it could be just another test to see how much I can truly withstand before I break again, hence the not so great attitude.
In day to day life Ed likes to use words like, calamity, disaster, awful, for things like, a glass of spilled milk. Drop something on the floor IT'S A DISASTER! Stump your toe IT'S AWFUL. Dog jumps in the creek OMG A CALAMITY. I am forever saying.. it's not that bad stop exaggerating. It is a pet peeve of mine, why is it a pet peeve of mine because when a CALAMITY does happen no one comes running because.. no one believes.
I had my own real life calamity last week, so lets start by defining it.
Learn to pronounce
noun: calamity; plural noun: calamities
an event causing great and often sudden damage or distress; a disaster.
Cutting my foot open was definitely sudden damage and distressing, the fact it took my dad 30 minutes to get to me because he thought everyone was exaggerating made it even worse, this is why we don't use terms like those Ed!!!! Although I will hand it to him, he had his own semi calamity yesterday, he fell off a step stool because he doesn't want to tell anyone he fell off a ladder. He's fine He's fine. He has a knot on his leg but that is from the pole driver hitting it on the way down not really the fall. Step Stool, Floating dock, 100 lb pole driver what could go wrong??? Such is just a day in the life around here lately.
Oh back to my hex.. in one day these things happened
- Flat tire as I was leaving to take Drake to surgery
- Borrow another vehicle
- Forget handicap sign and my coffee
- Bridge was open
- No one was around to assist Drake and I get in hospital (remember my foot)
- I didn't get to tell him good luck or I loved him before surgery because the nurse or the receptionist lied, we don't know which
- They sent Drake home so drugged from the surgery that he was calling me darlin'
- It DOWN POURED as I was trying to get him loaded into the truck
- It rained so hard all I could see was a wall of white
- A tree branch crashed down on the windshield in front of my face (didn't break the window but scared me to death)
- The low tire pressure light came on in the 2nd borrowed vehicle
- I refused to stop to get Nuggies for Drake (that was a tragedy)
- There was a medication communication mix up
- and for the final act of the day... drum roll please....
- My oldest ran over the neighbor's dog's paw (are you supposed to you double possessive like that?)
I don't know who you are or why you are so angry with me, but will you please let it go? Now is not the time and frankly I have done nothing but love on people soooooo what you so mad about tell me?
In truth, it is likely the universe just testing me to see if I will break again, it's probably having a hard time breaking through the walls of medication that I now take, which is a great thing, because short of full blown tears three times, a crappy attitude more times that I want to think about, I think I am holding it all together rather well. Everyone is fed and semi healthy, I have hosted two dinner parties (one was pizza does that count) I have cooked for a large cook out with my friends, the household chores are done and caught up, I walked a 5 k.. yes walked but I wanted to run sooooo bad. I literally have not slowed down one iota since cutting my foot, I have not had time, but I also have not had time to write in the chaos of it all. I have had to adjust my work schedule so that I get off really early so I can take care of all of the other needs around here and that cut right into when I write. I know I said I would try at the end of the day but I am so tired by then that it would be more gibberish than it is now!
Ed and I are on semistaycation right now. In that he is definitely on vacation and I am going to work some because why not, we aren't going anywhere and I get up so early that by the time I work 4 hours he is ready to start the day. I will save my time for another time when we can go somewhere, but I do hope to get the stitches out of my foot in the next day or so and enjoy time on the water and with my love, we so need some DOWN TIME.
Speaking of downtime.. I am out of here.
Hope everyone has a safe and enjoyable day!
Love Light and Peace