Good grief…. I am hoping this new “routine” is just me adjusting to the cooler temps but to say that I am in love with my snuggly bed is an understatement!
I am not nor have I ever been one of those people that could stay in bed all day, as a matter a fact I even said this weekend that there are times that I wish I had that luxury. Even in the worst of my depression I couldn’t just cover my head with my blanket and stay there no matter how badly I wanted to.
I would drag myself out of bed and zombie around all day. This though is different, I don’t feel depressed or sad or any of the other adjectives I use when the darkness is lurking. I wouldn’t even say I feel TIRED… I just feel snuggly.
I have transformed our little cottage here and especially the bedroom into a sweet little safe haven that is so darn inviting that I just long to hang out there. The puppies are both with me for the first time in weeks and it is like the gangs all back together! (giggle)
So why am I complaining? Im not really … I am just not used to feeling that way. It dawns on me as I write this that half of you probably aren’t even awake yet but I was an hour later getting up that normal because I just didn’t want to! That was after going to bed before 8!
Some nights I read, others I watch TV, sometimes I play on my phone, but some nights I just turn on my stars (yes I am a child I have a star machine) and watch them, but all nights it just feels like the place that all is right with the world.
There are times that as I lay in silence I think to myself, “Man that cup of coffee is going to be yummy in the morning” only to find myself in the morning thinking “Oh going to bed tonight is going to feel so good” that most definitely is not a bad life. Of course the day is riddled with other wonderful moments, I have a class planned at the Y today I am looking forward to, I have a dinner date with my dad tonight, yesterday Drake and I met for dinner, hoping to see my nephew and baby cousins for a few minutes tomorrow, life doesn’t complete revolve around my snuggly spot. I don’t think it is that I don’t want to get up, because I do, there are so many highlights in life I don’t want to miss… but man that snuggle game is on point!
I like being a super early riser though, so I am hoping that I can break the morning lingering again. That time before everyone else is going about their day, the darkness right before the dawn when nearly the whole world is silent. It is then that I hear myself the best. It is then that I get the most done. It is then that I am grateful to be alive and enjoy my first cup of coffee. So while the snuggling is amazing, I don’t want to lose that special time I spend with myself before the noise of the world drowns out my kind inner dialogue, you see that morning voice she is quiet, she is soft, and most times she is kind. That is the me that needs to the most nourishment and time, unfortunately, during the day when things are loud and busy the one that breaks through is the not so nice one, ushering in self-doubt and insecurities.
I guess life is pretty darn good if the only worry I have this morning is I didn’t spend enough time with myself before starting my day… because I was snuggling! It also probably should not be lost on me that I went soooooooo long without sleeping that this is just a make up session I am not fully used to yet.
How are things going with you? Do you have a favorite spot or time?
Peace Love and Light