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Yea this one will be hard.. Happy Birthday. 

2/3/2015

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When a writer has no words that can adequately describe something its tough. So anyway here goes.. that guy up there in the picture it's his birthday. He is old. I know he is old because he is older than me and I am old as dirt. He's been hanging around for over 4 years. 4 years hanging around me is more than an average life time believe me. Anyway first off I want to say Happy Birthday to him, because everyone should say happy birthday. It is appropriate, it is what we are supposed to do. Secondly I should say that I will probably always remain younger than him because after he reads this he will probably kill me. Third.. third is going to take some time so I am going to make a new paragraph.

He lives there... I live here.. it makes things hard, really hard. There have been many times I felt alone because he was there and I am here, but the truth is he could have been here it would have made no difference I am lonely on the inside not the outside, that didn't stop me from raising complete hell about it though. Kinda like many other things. I know that I haven't been easy, I wasn't easy before the accident so I am down right difficult now.

He was the first person there when the accident happened, and for some reason he hasn't bothered to leave yet. He's been there when the only thing I could do was make it to Mathews and basically hide. He's been there through almost 2 years of pure hell and very little happiness. He's been there when I just plain stopped making the trip back to Mathews. He's been there when I completely shut down and refused to talk to him.  He deserves more than these simple words will ever show him, but right now it is all I have. Marilyn Monroe once said “I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” This guy.. he has totally handled me at my worst and he is still around. He deserves a little of the best.

They say in life we have a person, I have persons, I am blessed that way, but this guy, he is definitely the number one person, even when I am completely livid at him for usually no reason at all, he's still my person. He's the one I tell everything to even when he doesn't want to hear it he still listens. There aren't many people in this world that would say "All I want for MY birthday is for YOU to be better", but he did and he does. I honestly believe that he would give or do anything just to make me better, make me happy again.

So Ed, all I can say is what I have been saying for months, I'm trying. I know it doesn't look like much but I am trying. And for the record, I do know you love me.

Now all you readers tell the man happy birthday he deserves it!

Happy Birthday.
I love you.
Unyet.
12 Comments
Adrienne
2/2/2015 10:10:54 pm

Ed sounds like an MVP in this whole experience that you have been through. Right now you are focused on the gratitude for what he has done for you, and rightfully so. Someday you will get to where you will see how much you have likely done for him as well. Happy birthday Ed!

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Renee E
2/2/2015 10:51:16 pm

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Stephanie
2/2/2015 11:16:40 pm

I cannot tell you how much I love you, him and this blog post!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ED 😄🎁🎈🎉

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Aunt Ann
2/2/2015 11:53:14 pm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ED! WISHING YOU THE SIMPLE PLEASURES OF LIFE AND ALL THROUGHOUT THE COMING YEAR.I APPRECIATE YOU ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR RE DURING ALL THE GOOD TIMES AS WELL AS THE BAD.
LOVE YOU,AUNT ANN

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Renee Edwards
2/3/2015 12:27:15 am

Happy Birthday Ed! Enjoy your day!

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Dianne
2/3/2015 01:29:07 am

Happy Birthday "ED" Enjoy your day. The Owens Clan

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Christen McGinnes
2/3/2015 05:02:17 am

Happiest birthday wishes to Ed!

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Edjie
2/3/2015 07:06:07 am

That brings a tear to my eyes, Thank You, and everyone else for all the birthday wishes,JUST THANKS!

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Chesapeake Bay Woman link
2/3/2015 08:19:54 am

Happiest of birthdays, Ed, and many thanks for being her Number One.

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Kelly, her Yaya
2/3/2015 09:48:15 am

Happiest of Birthdays Ed!!!

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Bunny
2/3/2015 01:12:19 pm

Happy birthday Ed.

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Christine
2/3/2018 06:56:02 am

Happy birthday! Thank you for loving her....she’s awesome.

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